How did I get here?

I always envision people asking me how do I get to my point. That is my narcissistic self to be blamed. Oh well, might as well put it here.

In short, I don’t know. I find it confusing. I never actually thought I would have made it this far. I suppose it’s not actually far. People greatly exaggerate FAANG’s engineer. Caused by sequence of events I suppose. If I have to list the sequence of events in order, it would be this:

  1. I learned programming when I was 14 years old. That makes programming easy.
  2. I went to UIA, which at that time have a good Competitive Programming team. I got into Competitive Programming. Competitive Programming is not exactly practical, but it makes interview into such big tech company easy.
  3. I worked with Abi Dzar at Petronas ICT which is a relatively big name, which probably caused the Grab recruiter to contact me.
  4. I got into Grab which is another big name, which probably caused the Amazon recruiter to contact me.
  5. Here I am.

Wow that is… a short list. Took a span of 14 years from 1 to 5. 1 to 2 take like 9 to 10 year. Could have cut that down to 6. I always regretted that period. But without those, 3 to 5 probably could not have happened. 3 to 5 only take 4 years. This feels drastic.


I need to sleep

Oh my brain, please stop thinking. I need to sleep. Lets think about whatever we want to do tomorrow. No no…. we don’t need to write a blog post. We need sleep.

Do you get me? Let me sleep please…. We will ponder on our life choices tomorrow.

Time goes on whether we like it or not. Time does not slow down or get faster. As we think about time, time moves on. There is nothing we can do about it.

Ah here we go again…

Time is life. Time wasted, is life wasted. Life wasted, opportunity wasted. So much opportunity wasted. Yet, so little time. Wasted opportunity imply the existences of it. At the same time, there is only so much that we can do.

Its not about the opportunity that we choose, it’s about the opportunity that we don’t. But choosing something, imply something else that is not choosen. In another word, there is always opportunity not taken, because we took some other opportunity.

There are life not taken, because we choose another life. Is one better that the other? No one really knows. When people are asked about what do they regret, its usually about things they don’t do. At the same time, they probably don’t do it, because they choose to do other things. If they do choose it instead, would they regret not doing the other thing?

Are we bound to regret regardless?

Let me sleep brain…